So yesterday something bad happened. I had invited my good friend Kris Walker to my other friends Peter Perez's house Friday. I didn't know Aiyana would be angry at me for inviting him to his house. You see Aiyana and Peter don't get along, more like Aiyana doesn't like Peter. Aiyana had texted me last night saying how I was a bad friend and all that good stuff, just because I invited Kris over FB. I don't understand where her anger is coming from. It's odd.

Aiyana and I have never fought before. We met last summer and never fought before. I am afraid that this small stupid fight will hurt things in the future. I don't think I did anything wrong, but according to Aiyana I did. I am lost. I don't know what to do, I can't apologize because I didn't do anything wrong.

She used the Milly example to prove what she meant. In all honesty, Aiyana and I are similar but extremely different. I don't care who my friends hang out with; whether it be my best friends or my worst enemy. Its all the same to me. I don't know what the future holds for me, ever, but as long as I don't lose any friends in the process of getting there, then I am okay with the future.




Honestly, that's what I am afraid of losing. Afraid that one day, the person who I trust the most with my life, will one day drop me and make me fall to the floor. It would be like tearing something that was attached to me and making me live the rest of my life without; eventually I would get used to the empty space, but until then the process would be painful.