This one is different. I can feel it! I know he's not like the others. I know he's going to be different. I can almost predict it. He's kind of like the only person who can see me for my qualities and not my appearance. He's not like any other person I have met.
When I met him, he was dancing on a pole!! I have never been attracted to anyone who's danced like he did. Usually I tend to think of them as slutty, or just attention whores. I didn't think of this boy like that.
It's almost like we were meant to meet. I can't explain it, but something drew my attention to him. Something about him, I just wanted to know more.
I was with three other girls. Danica, my good friend, made him come to us. Even though I told her I was kidding, inside I was jumping to get his attention. I was shocked by the fact that he stayed to chit chat. I thought, "If the boy stays, I wonder what would happen if I asked him to sit with us?"
The next day..
We ended up meeting up. I drove to Gainesville to meet him. I never drive out to meet someone, I always let them come to me or meet half way. But with him, I knew I should. What did I have to lose? No lie, when I got to Gainesville, I had no clue where I was going. I called him and no answer. He doesn't know this, but after twenty minutes waiting for the call, I turned the car around and got back on I-35 heading home. I was literally on the border of Sanger and the next city close to Gainesville, when he had called. Of course, I turned around and headed his way.
I like this boy.
I can't put my finger on the reason why. But something about him makes me comfortable. He makes me laugh and sometimes calms the chaos around me. Something I can't even do. I can't afford to lose something as big as him. He's not like anything or anyone I have ever met. He has this laughter, that will make you laugh your ass off! I love making him laugh, it makes me happy to know he is at least laughing even though the world around him is horrible. This is different for me. He makes me happy. I have never been truly happy with anyone. Everyone in my past, they just made me happy for a moment. They made me think of them for a split second and then my other thoughts override them. With Clayton, I can't stop thinking about him. Every thought, every movement, every sound; reminds me of him. I can't keep him out. I won't allow him out. I like thinking about him.
I may not be psychic, but I know this..
Clayton is here to stay. I will not let him go without a fight. I have never wanted someone like Clayton, to be in my life down the road, for the long run. I am not sure how long this relationship will last, but I can say this, I am happy where I am now. I will not think of the future and how hectic it is going to be.
"No matter what the world tells you, I am here to stay. I love being with you. Kissing you. Holding you in my arms. Staring at your eyes. I wouldn't trade it for the world. Cesar, I love you."
Clayton.
I don't know if you will be here tomorrow, the next day, or a year from now. But I do know that every minute we spend together, I promise to be here for you. I can your shoulder to cry on. I can be here for you when you need me. I am always here, rain or shine, love or hate; always.
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